. I still believe I can prevent and create thoughts in this immediate moment thru having the presence of mind to control my conscious.
OK. I want you to take a little time to further explore this process of thoughts being created or prevented. It will involve noticing how they appear (or don't appear) at the exact moment of it happening.
See if it is possible to catch a self in the act of creating or preventing them?
If there is a thinker of thoughts it should be possible to observe that thinker creating or stopping thoughts from appearing?
If there's a creator of thoughts, oughtn't it be possible for that creator to only create pleasant thoughts and not create unpleasant ones?
Consciousness. Yes! There's that. The experience of seeing is real enough. But what is it that is doing the noticing? Is there an entity 'there' 'doing' seeing?. I wouldn’t say seeing is only happening from my direct experience. I would say I am conscious of what is being seen.
A bit like the 'thinker'. Thoughts do appear, including the thought 'I think'. It's important to actually track down an entity, if possible.
James, many people experience fear or anxiety as they engage in looking for a self, as if someone, 'me' will get destroyed or negated if discovered to not be real. If there's any fear or apprehension about this inquiry we can almost certainly deal with it. But if fear goes unacknowledged it can lead to a resistance to continue looking. I'm not suggesting that you're nervous, by the way, but if you feel anything like this just let me know and, as I say, we can do a lot to reduce it.. Instead I’m grasping it and harnessing it cause it gives me a sense of existence and hope.