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by The Toe
Sun Nov 25, 2012 2:10 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel
Replies: 93
Views: 7856

Re: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel

This is what is being felt, Machiel. There is something else living through this body. It is actually very liberating. In relaxation (not figuring out with thoughts) and taking a look into direct experience , stuff is happening on itself. Liberating and fearfull at the same time. Thought saying 'no ...
by The Toe
Thu Nov 22, 2012 5:55 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel
Replies: 93
Views: 7856

Re: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel

Thanks machiel, Makes sense. The ego was trying to hold onto the pointers and continiously trying to understand Life without a doer. Holding on to 'there is no doer' as if I need to understand something. Anazlying awareness doesn't bring me far. So when walking happens here, it is obvious. No effort...
by The Toe
Sun Nov 18, 2012 8:22 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel
Replies: 93
Views: 7856

Re: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel

What will be aware of it showing up and disappearing? Good question. There is something here which is THAT without any I and I don't know what it is because it doesn't show up as an object. That's it. If I look at 'being now in this moment', no awareness shows up. Even if I say to myself 'notice so...
by The Toe
Sun Nov 18, 2012 12:56 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel
Replies: 93
Views: 7856

Re: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel

Awareness cannot be found. Otherwise I would have found it.

So there is only thing to do. Rest as '....................'. Being perhaps.

I can not do awareness or sense my way out of it or Look at it. There is nothing to look at.

So in just being here, maybe something will show up.
by The Toe
Sun Nov 18, 2012 12:53 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel
Replies: 93
Views: 7856

Re: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel

What is aware of them coming and going? Don't know. Haven't really understood 'awareness'. The closests that I come with it is with seeing colors. There is something that 'sees' that seeing colors is taking place. For the rest to be honoust with you, it sounds like blablabla to me. I have been inve...
by The Toe
Fri Nov 16, 2012 2:04 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel
Replies: 93
Views: 7856

Re: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel

Hi, When I ask myself now to see what this I is, a thought pops up saying 'I am the doer' and another one saying 'I am the one sitting behind the eyes seeing colours and hearing sounds and thinking'. So I have been looking into this for the last 4 days. Is there a 'Who' having these thoughts? 2 thin...
by The Toe
Mon Nov 12, 2012 10:24 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel
Replies: 93
Views: 7856

Re: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel

Forget the last sentence. That implies that there is a 'you' to let go.
by The Toe
Mon Nov 12, 2012 10:22 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel
Replies: 93
Views: 7856

Re: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel

'What ''we'' are doing here is looking if there is such a thing as a Javier in the first place, After a small silence, thought says 'I is the controller'. No I when there there was silence of no-thought. Hmmmm..... is there the Toe in the first place to do or not do something That has been the assu...
by The Toe
Mon Nov 12, 2012 12:50 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel
Replies: 93
Views: 7856

Re: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel

The essential thing to look at is what is this I that is in control or not? And if that is really you. Been looking all day to see if there is any control by a seperate I. In everything during the whole day. Walking is not controlled. If you would like to call that a miracle , it is....just the wal...
by The Toe
Sat Nov 10, 2012 8:21 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel
Replies: 93
Views: 7856

Re: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel

Well what did you do to get the urge to shit? I cannot make that urge happen. I can not make the urge to sneeze or being hungry happen. Somehow out of the blue, the urge to go to the toilet happens. For the thought to go to the toilet? will look into that next time I go to the toilet. The thought t...
by The Toe
Sat Nov 10, 2012 12:33 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel
Replies: 93
Views: 7856

Re: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel

This is not about doing something or undoing something, Give me more time to investigate in these things. Maybe I will come back in 5 weeks to figure out if seeing colours is done by me or if it is happening, cause too much reading online on the other posts and watching videos is not cutting it. An...
by The Toe
Fri Nov 09, 2012 8:42 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel
Replies: 93
Views: 7856

Re: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel

Do you want me to prove there is no self? Pointers are welcome. If there is no I, there is no Machiel who can point to truth. Proving there is an I happens or it doesn't. At the end it is up to me, whatever that means, to see truth. Sounds like more identification. I'm sorry but like this it will b...
by The Toe
Fri Nov 09, 2012 1:45 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel
Replies: 93
Views: 7856

Re: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel

quote by Andrew1 from liberationunleashed You need to look at life as it's happening in this moment and see that there is no you involved in any part of it.Even simple things like brushing your teeth.See how it is just happening without a you.Look at each detail from picking up your toothbrush to pu...
by The Toe
Fri Nov 09, 2012 1:10 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel
Replies: 93
Views: 7856

Re: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel

Well how to again implies something needs to change, seeing is already occuring same as here without a separate I doing it, no matter the thought ''I see''. Can you deny that the screen and the keyboard appear in front of you? There are colours. What sees that seeing is taking place then? Cause The...
by The Toe
Thu Nov 08, 2012 1:00 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel
Replies: 93
Views: 7856

Re: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel

Hi Machiel, You always exist during all the changes It wasn't that I stopped looking. I was kinda forced to do that. I could do nothing more than not doing. The mind blocked out, like trying to think of somebody's name and it is on the tip of the tongue. You asked me if I had any questions. I do. Fu...

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