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by The Toe
Fri Mar 01, 2013 11:57 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel
Replies: 93
Views: 7871

Re: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel

Thanks, I can summ/mention up the things that are happening. Is that noticing? THe summing up of stuff happening. There is a certainty about it that stuff is happening. A kind of 'yes, there it is'. BUt it isn't an object. Hard to pinpoint what noticing is, but something is effortless. I can summ up...
by The Toe
Thu Feb 28, 2013 1:59 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel
Replies: 93
Views: 7871

Re: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel

so yes....the thought happens on itself saying 'I am going to do what MAchiel said and check if I can come up with a thought I create'........... Then waiting for thought in silence......and without any intention to think it...boom....the word 'tree' and 'Messi' and 'banana'. Those thoughts just hap...
by The Toe
Wed Feb 27, 2013 4:40 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel
Replies: 93
Views: 7871

Re: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel

What im pointing out is no separation between the eye(form) that sees and what is seen(form), Yes....what is outside is the seeing (a function of what the eye is doing)..... so what is there is the seeing. What is behind the eyes then? Cause I see that there is seeing taking place outside. just che...
by The Toe
Mon Feb 25, 2013 12:42 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel
Replies: 93
Views: 7871

Re: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel

Sorry as I had a mayor ego blow 2 days ago. I was an I again. NOw today I started to do the experiments again of seeing if there is free will in doing those experiments. I think I am the doer at the end...at the very end of the action but am not sure. I will continue with these experimetns as they a...
by The Toe
Sat Feb 16, 2013 3:58 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel
Replies: 93
Views: 7871

Re: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel

HI, Been looking into the questions that popped up. I was tricked by them AGAIN. Then the realization happened again that those questions were just popping up. I have been looking into 'who is doing the seeking'. It is hopeless. If follow that thought, I am an individual again. Something is blocking...
by The Toe
Wed Jan 23, 2013 1:18 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel
Replies: 93
Views: 7871

Re: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel

Hi machiel, How is the form there? Or better say, how are you? Been popping in and out of existence online. There was a looking into more thoughts and more and more and at the end....... I kinda almost gave up.....I was overtaken by thoughts and to be mine. SO I said to myself 'Oh screw God and Trut...
by The Toe
Wed Jan 09, 2013 1:13 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel
Replies: 93
Views: 7871

Re: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel

HI, How is that form over there in 2013? I have been taking more rest with occasional 'looking'. MOst of the time was put into looking if thoughts were mine or just happening. MOst of the emotional contact or belief is gone, but the question remains now: If I am not my thoughts, I cannot figure awar...
by The Toe
Sun Dec 16, 2012 1:09 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel
Replies: 93
Views: 7871

Re: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel

Hi Machiel, After that moment of recognition that 'seeking-questions' popped up effortlessly, a lot of struggle went out of the door. That is why I couldn't write anything. I wasn't capable of describing what was happening during the last 16 days. I was thrown into not knowing what the hell 'awarene...
by The Toe
Sat Dec 01, 2012 12:55 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel
Replies: 93
Views: 7871

Re: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel

Yes yes, all stories, so can you see I is always a story, movement or not? It is more obvious then ever, so there is not much effort being put on exercises today after that seeing yesterday. The thought of saying 'I am stupid' is a story , yes. No I saying that. Just thought and no belief attached ...
by The Toe
Fri Nov 30, 2012 1:11 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel
Replies: 93
Views: 7871

Re: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel

Many Insights are happening as to 'what is doing the seeking and questioning and experimenting'. Man.......laughter arises. The same was seen yesterday at night when casual looking at it was taking place, same as today. Wow. The thought are sooooo loud but soooo distant,just happening, no I doing th...
by The Toe
Thu Nov 29, 2012 11:38 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel
Replies: 93
Views: 7871

Re: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel

Ehm, so what your saying is that I, the thought I, can do everything you do? How? Can a thought think? The I in the thought makes reference to the doer. The doer can do something in 2% of the cases. Who cares if it is named I or Ali BAba or the doer. Again, I showed you on the video that with inten...
by The Toe
Thu Nov 29, 2012 2:23 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel
Replies: 93
Views: 7871

Re: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel

to see if there is or isnt an i in the first place I in the thought 'I am the doer' is the doer for now. Did the experiment again today and another collapse was there. I am not gonna whine. You searched for truth, right, Machiel, for many years? Did it feel like an I seeking back then? The answer i...
by The Toe
Wed Nov 28, 2012 11:09 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel
Replies: 93
Views: 7871

Re: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel

HI Life, Yesterday after deep meditation at night and then right after that the experiment to see if there I can conciously will my hand to open, my body collapsed out of mysery (not mystery) to the ground. I blanked out totallly. I made this video for you to explain why the gate is closed. I hope y...
by The Toe
Tue Nov 27, 2012 4:24 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel
Replies: 93
Views: 7871

Re: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel

Hi Machiel, I decided to become a non-dual monk for 2 months. I will not go to non-dual chatrooms to discuss non-duality, I will not watch any videos on youtube, I will not read more pdf files, I will not come to liberation unleased for 2 months. If Life is All, it includes the 2 month break and see...
by The Toe
Tue Nov 27, 2012 12:39 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel
Replies: 93
Views: 7871

Re: I would like to have a conversation with LIFE/Machiel

What is this something? What is aware of it? Is it always here? I don't know anymore. Looked at awareness. It seems I can only be still and just be without consciously doing anything. What is missing that is not here now? The total understanding that there is no control. That is what is missing, Ma...

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