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by ha2
Mon May 23, 2016 9:59 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Excited to be here! And to live in self-less-ness.
Replies: 67
Views: 8226

Re: Excited to be here! And to live in self-less-ness.

Also some confusion as to why the controller seems to go away when I sit down to do these exercises, but it feels so clearly there in daily life. 'Feels so clearly there' or 'has been believed so firmly to be there' (ie programmed thinking system) (T)? Again this seems to be the case when I inspect...
by ha2
Sun May 22, 2016 8:37 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Excited to be here! And to live in self-less-ness.
Replies: 67
Views: 8226

Re: Excited to be here! And to live in self-less-ness.

Is that (T) or (E)? You are right. That is just a (T) as well. What (in (E) ) is controlling this movement? Again there is some correlation - there is a (T) about how the hand should move, then an (E) of the hand moving correspondingly, but there is no causal relationship between them so I cannot s...
by ha2
Fri May 20, 2016 10:26 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Excited to be here! And to live in self-less-ness.
Replies: 67
Views: 8226

Re: Excited to be here! And to live in self-less-ness.

Am liking that '(?)' there. How is that 'I' that 'was observing them' actually experienced (E)? Is that anymore than a thought or assumption (E)? You're right, when I inspect it, it is a construction/assumption that I am observing rather than them just appearing. -- (E) Air against hand sensation (...
by ha2
Fri May 20, 2016 3:33 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Excited to be here! And to live in self-less-ness.
Replies: 67
Views: 8226

Re: Excited to be here! And to live in self-less-ness.

Experiences: - Trousers-against-legs sensation - Noticing door - Noticing mirror - Itchy hair sensation - Breath-in-nose sensation - Runny-nose sensation - Floor pressing against feet sensation - Noticing curtains - Floor creaking sound - Legs moving sensation Hm it did feel like it was just happeni...
by ha2
Tue May 17, 2016 11:27 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Excited to be here! And to live in self-less-ness.
Replies: 67
Views: 8226

Re: Excited to be here! And to live in self-less-ness.

Hi Mark, Huge apologies for the grossly delayed response. I have been procrastinating writing back and feeling guilty that I did not fully understand what to do (while also mulling over how best to approach this). I will try to be consistent in responses going forward. I'll do the exercise again, th...
by ha2
Wed May 11, 2016 5:39 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Excited to be here! And to live in self-less-ness.
Replies: 67
Views: 8226

Re: Excited to be here! And to live in self-less-ness.

I did not get any visceral sensory or physical reaction from reading any of them, purely intellectual and inquisitive.
by ha2
Wed May 11, 2016 5:21 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Excited to be here! And to live in self-less-ness.
Replies: 67
Views: 8226

Re: Excited to be here! And to live in self-less-ness.

1. This is not a way to escape your daily life. Yes makes sense. 2. This is not about gaining something extra, becoming something special. This feels weird and a bit confusing. I thought this was? 3. This is not about cultivating an altered state of consciousness. 4. This is not a trick of the mind...
by ha2
Mon May 09, 2016 1:51 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Excited to be here! And to live in self-less-ness.
Replies: 67
Views: 8226

Re: Excited to be here! And to live in self-less-ness.

Oops, thought that didn't post and ended up writing it twice.
by ha2
Mon May 09, 2016 1:50 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Excited to be here! And to live in self-less-ness.
Replies: 67
Views: 8226

Re: Excited to be here! And to live in self-less-ness.

Also, I truly appreciate the time and effort you're putting into these thoughtful replies every day. Thanks so much, Mark.
by ha2
Mon May 09, 2016 1:48 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Excited to be here! And to live in self-less-ness.
Replies: 67
Views: 8226

Re: Excited to be here! And to live in self-less-ness.

Also, thank you so much for your time and effort in these thoughtful responses. I truly appreciate the time you're putting into this every day, Mark.
by ha2
Mon May 09, 2016 1:47 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Excited to be here! And to live in self-less-ness.
Replies: 67
Views: 8226

Re: Excited to be here! And to live in self-less-ness.

We are almost splitting hairs here, as the words will always be labels (T), no matter how we phrase them, won't they? They will never be the experience. Yes, this makes sense. May just be worth considering, before we move on, whether the apparent location involved in body locations (eg cold foot, f...
by ha2
Mon May 09, 2016 3:14 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Excited to be here! And to live in self-less-ness.
Replies: 67
Views: 8226

Re: Excited to be here! And to live in self-less-ness.

How about something like 'coldish-lappish sensation'? How does that feel? We can play with the words themselves, you know. Interesting. I like that too but it doesn't intuitively feel different to me than "cold lap sensation". In either case it's a sensation that describes (or refers to?) a coldnes...
by ha2
Sun May 08, 2016 5:37 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Excited to be here! And to live in self-less-ness.
Replies: 67
Views: 8226

Re: Excited to be here! And to live in self-less-ness.

Few other things: - Reading the thoughts now seem out of place and silly since they are referring to self that the experiences aren't consistent with. - The experiences feel somehow shorter or more like singular items rather than an ongoing action. "Cold lap feeling" sounds like a noun and a single ...
by ha2
Sun May 08, 2016 5:34 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Excited to be here! And to live in self-less-ness.
Replies: 67
Views: 8226

Re: Excited to be here! And to live in self-less-ness.

(E) window noticing (E) rain noticing (E) cold lap feeling (T) thought about how it's cold in this room (E) banana taste appearing (E) breath flowing feeling (T) thought about appointments i have later today (T) thought that if i don't write all this down i'll forget it (T) the thought that i'm not ...
by ha2
Fri May 06, 2016 5:56 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Excited to be here! And to live in self-less-ness.
Replies: 67
Views: 8226

Re: Excited to be here! And to live in self-less-ness.

(E) Looking out my windows (E) Looking at the rain outside my window (E) feeling the cold of my laptop in my lap (T) thinking about how it's cold in this room (E) taste of the banana i just ate in my mouth (E) noticing my breathing - the feel of my breath going in and out of my lungs (T) thought abo...

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