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by Ilona
Fri May 01, 2020 5:48 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Who am I?
Replies: 125
Views: 6508

Re: Who am I?

Thank you for answers. Is the glue the wanting to awaken? There is a strong wish for the I to achieve something, to get somewhere, to see something. Letting go of this idea of I means there will be nothing achieved. Keeping the idea gives a sense of control over a better future. Is this wanting what...
by Ilona
Thu Apr 30, 2020 9:45 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Looking for guidance in seeing the illusoriness of self directly
Replies: 11
Views: 336

Re: Looking for guidance in seeing the illusoriness of self directly

Hi Hamza. Welcome to the forum! Thank you for the intro. We can have a conversation and see where it takes you. All I ask for is to answer with full honesty and from your own experience. Let’s begin. What do you expect in practical everyday life that should change or be different? The sense of self,...
by Ilona
Thu Apr 30, 2020 6:12 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Who am I?
Replies: 125
Views: 6508

Re: Who am I?

Thank you for sharing. Good to hear that there were openings and seeing. The experiences come and go. Experience of expansion, experience of contraction, like breathing, in and out, naturally. Welcome that. There is nothing to fix. It’s all a happening. Frustration to see this again is what is happe...
by Ilona
Wed Apr 29, 2020 10:32 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Freedom to be!
Replies: 79
Views: 1383

Re: Freedom to be!

Yes, it feels like loosing something — a dream.
It’s ok to lose fantasy when you get reality.

Nothing real is ever threatened. What is simply is.

Love.
by Ilona
Wed Apr 29, 2020 5:56 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Ascending Aquarian
Replies: 12
Views: 1214

Re: Ascending Aquarian

I can see the observer :) is there I that is observing an observer? How many observers are there? There is being aware. Knowing of being aware. Same event different words. Is Kathy aware? Or Kathy is content of awareness, a thought? How do you enjoy being in the body? Let’s see, are you in the body?...
by Ilona
Wed Apr 29, 2020 5:33 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Who am I?
Replies: 125
Views: 6508

Re: Who am I?

Yes, good work! Let’s connect this to the sense of being, aliveness, awareness, knowing that I am. This is here always. Simple awareness of being aware. Nothing extraordinary, just a most natural state of being. Experiences come and go, beingness remains. Knowing of experiences and experiencing is o...
by Ilona
Wed Apr 29, 2020 5:28 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Looking at the gate
Replies: 59
Views: 3210

Re: Looking at the gate

Thank you for honesty. Good to see there is a crack! Yes to that! So can you loose control that you never had? Expectations is a big one. Everyone has them. Reading, listening to other people paint a picture of how it is for them, then that picture is compared with how it is for you and there is a f...
by Ilona
Wed Apr 29, 2020 5:20 am
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: The Beginnings of It All
Replies: 32
Views: 524

Re: The Beginnings of It All

Great work, thank you. Yes, no separation. All is included, even naming if experiences and getting ideas about what this is. Seeing that, are you separate from life happening? Are you apart from aliveness? Is it possible to be separate from life happening? Tell me how you see free will and choice. L...
by Ilona
Wed Apr 29, 2020 5:17 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Freedom to be!
Replies: 79
Views: 1383

Re: Freedom to be!

Wonderful, thank you! Yes, one event, different ways to describe and all is a happening. So what is that gets lost in thoughts? Or there is awareness of being lost in thoughts, thoughts about being lost happening? There is also experience of being aware of what is happening in this moment, right now...
by Ilona
Tue Apr 28, 2020 7:46 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Freedom to be!
Replies: 79
Views: 1383

Re: Freedom to be!

Right! Let’s clarify this Beingness/aliveness is here as life is unfolding, and it's constantly perceiving/experiencing content through the senses and the mind (thoughts, feelings and sensations). Not through, but AS. Experiencing content as sensation, as thoughts, as feelings, as contractions, as e...
by Ilona
Tue Apr 28, 2020 5:22 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Freedom to be!
Replies: 79
Views: 1383

Re: Freedom to be!

Thank you, now this sounds simple and clear. Yes, being aware is uninterrupted. Life experiences are ever changing. You are saying that there is awareness that identifies with fictional character Eric. It sounds that there is a gap between something called awareness and something called Eric. Is tha...
by Ilona
Tue Apr 28, 2020 12:11 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Freedom to be!
Replies: 79
Views: 1383

Re: Freedom to be!

You know, I want to take a zen stick and slap you here, lol. But I will be nice and say kindly- what do you get from insisting on being delusional? Look at my questions again and answer as simply as possible. Are you aware right now? Yes or no? Not some philosophical theory about unfiltered unconsci...
by Ilona
Tue Apr 28, 2020 10:40 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Who am I?
Replies: 125
Views: 6508

Re: Who am I?

Examine this sensation and thoughts. Is it one and the same or there are two events? Sensations gap thoughts? Knowing gap sensations? Knowing gap thoughts? Thought seem to be thought by me Is there a gap here between thinker and thinking? Is there a thinker or simply thoughts arising? Are you making...
by Ilona
Tue Apr 28, 2020 10:40 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Who am I?
Replies: 125
Views: 6508

Re: Who am I?

Examine this sensation and thoughts. Is it one and the same or there are two events? Sensations gap thoughts? Knowing gap sensations? Knowing gap thoughts? Thought seem to be thought by me Is there a gap here between thinker and thinking? Is there a thinker or simply thoughts arising? Are you making...
by Ilona
Tue Apr 28, 2020 5:56 am
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: The Beginnings of It All
Replies: 32
Views: 524

Re: The Beginnings of It All

Great looking. I"m unsure if body is needed to feel sensation. Seemingly it would be necessary but I don't know of any other experience where body is not needed to feel sensation Let’s clarify this. Body is a concept pointing to sensations. Sensations are here. Do they need to be labelled body in or...

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