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by Ilona
Wed May 20, 2020 6:29 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: looking for clarity
Replies: 320
Views: 26745

Re: looking for clarity

Thank you. Yes, the thoughts about future come with fear and suffering. Let’s examine what is future. Where is future now? Imagine what you are doing tomorrow at the same time? Where is that image? Are you in the future or the image about the future is in you? What do you see in the image? Is that i...
by Ilona
Tue May 19, 2020 7:27 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Who am I?
Replies: 125
Views: 6508

Re: Who am I?

Good work! Ok, next, left examine sounds and hearing. Listen Are some sounds mine and some sounds not mine? Pay attention to the loudest sounds that are present. Now switch to the most subtle sound that is heard. Do you hear colours? Smells, taste? What information are you getting through sound chan...
by Ilona
Tue May 19, 2020 6:48 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: looking for clarity
Replies: 320
Views: 26745

Re: looking for clarity

Thank you for message and update. You don’t have to continue on your own, I’m still here and you are welcome to continue writing and sharing what is going on with you. Yes, reading all these threads is going to give you a mountain of expectations and then the idea that something is lacking for you. ...
by Ilona
Mon May 18, 2020 7:47 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Who am I?
Replies: 125
Views: 6508

Re: Who am I?

I hear you. But feeling connected is something that I experience or I don’t experience. So when I don’t feel connected separateness seems possible again. What I’m talking about is not an experience of connectedness. It is knowing. Let’s look at this. Look at colours, with eyes, there are different c...
by Ilona
Mon May 18, 2020 8:53 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Looking at the gate
Replies: 59
Views: 3210

Re: Looking at the gate

Thank you, yes, looking at the right direction. You say it is sticky. Let’s examine this. What is the glue made of? There is digging. Are you doing it or is it arising, happening? If you are doing it, what is the actual doing? What is not effortless? Is digging, seeking somehow separate from the who...
by Ilona
Sat May 16, 2020 9:17 am
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: The Beginnings of It All
Replies: 32
Views: 524

Re: The Beginnings of It All

Wonderful! Thank you for taking this road. And yes, there is much to settle in and explore. If you ever feel stuck, I’m just a message away. Also a good way to practice is guiding, it’s very fulfilling and helps to deepen this seeing, as you get to ask questions that you never thought to ask before....
by Ilona
Sat May 16, 2020 6:19 am
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: The Pendulum
Replies: 97
Views: 7498

Re: The Pendulum

Hi Andreas, thank you for full answers. I see with a little more pondering the question number five was answered. Yes, it’s simple. Everything it seems complicate, it’s not it. As for guiding, it is great experience as you get to walk with someone and ask questions that you haven’t asked before. It’...
by Ilona
Sat May 16, 2020 6:15 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Who am I?
Replies: 125
Views: 6508

Re: Who am I?

Yes, it is a process and it continues. Every moment there is an invitation to see the obvious freshly. And life brings all the conditioning that says otherwise up, to be met in this new knowing. Can you examine and tell me, what is a difference between a feeling of connectedness and knowing that sep...
by Ilona
Sat May 16, 2020 6:09 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Twisted Up
Replies: 39
Views: 2260

Re: Twisted Up

That’s lovely, thank you for sharing about the changes that you notice. It all sounds like you are settling in. Of course challenges keep coming and it’s great to see them as an opportunity of growth rather than something g to avoid. Would you say, you are ready for the final questions? Love receive...
by Ilona
Thu May 14, 2020 3:24 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: self free
Replies: 15
Views: 242

Re: self free

i think both way it works Yes, when you think about it. But in this investigation I am asking you to look in actuality, see and describe what you see, what is actually happening. It’s not about thinking at all. It’s about checking what is true in experience.. so I leave my previous questions for yo...
by Ilona
Thu May 14, 2020 5:41 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Twisted Up
Replies: 39
Views: 2260

Re: Twisted Up

Wonderful!
What do you notice in your normal everyday life? Has anything changed, look different from before we started this conversation?
Is seeking still going strong?
And is there a doubt about the separate self being an illusion?
Write what feels true from you experience last few days.
Love.
by Ilona
Thu May 14, 2020 5:26 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Who am I?
Replies: 125
Views: 6508

Re: Who am I?

That’s lovely, thank you for sharing. Good to hear that there is less worrying! That’s a nice effect.
Is there any doubt about the illusion of a separate self?
Do you still feel separate from life happening?

Love.
by Ilona
Wed May 13, 2020 8:41 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Looking for guidance in seeing the illusoriness of self directly
Replies: 11
Views: 336

Re: Looking for guidance in seeing the illusoriness of self directly

Let’s look at this assumption, that something can be separate from life happening, something is outside life, that life is happening to. Here is a metaphor. Look at a tree. You see trunk, branches, leaves, the top of roots. Every leaf in that tree is unique, every leaf is slightly different in colou...
by Ilona
Wed May 13, 2020 5:38 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Who am I?
Replies: 125
Views: 6508

Re: Who am I?

Yes, there is nothing to hold on to. And so it is. Letting go may be scary, but holding on is painful.
What are you noticing in normal everyday life? How are your relationships with close people? Does anything look different?
What has changed since the start of this conversation?

Love.
by Ilona
Wed May 13, 2020 5:36 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Looking at the gate
Replies: 59
Views: 3210

Re: Looking at the gate

You are right, there is no journey. There are no steps to take. All it is is noticing, that you are already here, now. Noticing is not a doing. It’s a focus shift from thinking to whole body experiencing, to knowing that I am. Experiences come and go, constantly in the move. Knowing of experiences i...

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