Re. expectations - I probably also am being judgemental of the fact that 'I'm not nicer / kinder'... with the underlying expectation of 'I should feel joy/love towards everyone and everything all the time' LoL.

Permanent state of clarity, hm, permanent, hm... I know! :-) No-one said that expectations and wants are logical! Ideas about weight are story, containing what one heard of others, what one was told... Oh yes. After I replied yesterday I had a good look at why I want to lose weight. And 99% of it i...

Hi Jadzia, I hope you are having a good weekend. It's been a busy couple of days and I was just seeing how things went. I'm not really sure where things are regarding gating happening or not. To be honest, I think I'm still expecting some sort of permanent state of clarity or oneness... New insights...

"Hey, I really don't have to believe everything thoughts tell." Yes - I'm finding this and being non-judgemental makes things lighter/easier - but more practice needed! It's interesting that when the stories are cycling, and are tied in with emotions, there just doesn't seem to be any space to noti...

Clarity comes... and goes. I feel like 'I' am almost 'there' though... I notice now that pain doesn't make me feel as though 'I' am 'inside' the body, but fatigue and nausea and light-headedness are all sensations that make one feel, physically, disconnected from the world and for me reduce the sens...

For the next days simply observe the flow of life. All movement. Yours, the rustling of the leaves, the movement of a dog, bike and so on. Share what you find. Yesterday, for some time, I was firmly in the 'no-self' perspective. Everything was ok, just as it should be. There was neither separation,...

Thanks Jadzia :-) We are big in explaining and it is quite a habit... Watch this habit and and see how it feeds the feeling of separateness. Yes, today it was very clear that there is only awaring, and anything else is just thoughts, ideas... Felt spacious and like I had lots of perspective on the '...

So there is awaring? Awareness? Is there a beginning and end to awareness? What is aware? I think my best answer is 'I don't know'. Does anybody really know? I've been examining what 'it' looks like, but I need to do more looking. So far... I didn't use the word 'awareness' because you can't find a...

Drop the idea. When ever an idea forms say >Hi and then drop it. What happens if you do it? Nothing, I'm confused :-s But what if we are more than the body, more than mind, more than all the ideas we have how a human has to be? All that is here, if dropping ideas, is awaring of sensations and menta...

When we say that human is a concept too, what do we mean? We mean a whole bunch of ideas which start with: walking on two legs, how the body is build and going to philosphical or psychological or cultural ideas. For me, I probably think first of genetics, but yes, also ideas about being capable of ...

No more glimpses in the last day or so. :-( Being human is a concept, what if you simply drop it? Just for a moment. Is there really a difference between you and a dog? Yes, I see it is a concept. A categorisation by the mind of some of the world that is seen. I think I was struggling for words. Loo...

It's as though a light of, almost shocking, realisation flickers on every now and again. Every now and again I'm doing something (ignore the 'I' and 'doing', you know what I mean, LoL), and suddenly there is a recognition that this isn't actually a 'me' (the sense of me, the familiar feelings, thoug...

So, just been trying to feel in to what is today. To try to stop explaining. One thing I saw today, was that the familiarity of this human being - these body sensations, certain repeating thoughts and stories, certain repeating happenings/actions - are what constituted a persisting sense of 'me'. It...

Indeed, the 'self' is one of the beliefs. So far, here's what I think I've found... Beliefs are ideas that are taken to be a true representation of reality - by which I mean other thoughts arise in accordance with them, maybe actions happen in accordance with them. They are in fact taken to be reali...

Where are you with the witness right now? When looking closely, I'm pretty confident that the witness doesn't exist, but I think I need to spend a bit more time with this - some extra quiet time at the weekend - to allow it to sink in. I've also been thinking about what gating is, and what I'm expe...