Hi Nigel, ... I had a look at this, prehaps a sliding scale in the sense that the natural being becomes more obvious or lived as the "Nigel" self reduces in importance. Here change is so gradual probably aspects of this are not noticed. ... Last night I was looking at the perception of objects and t...

Hiya Phil,

Great.

Yes, I'm in the UK. :)

No worries about daily updates etc, I trust you'll post when you wish to post.

Look forward to hearing about the weaving!

With best wishes,
John

My question is, 'how do I resolve this perception'?

There's no keeping this at arm's length, you need to find out what this is about, beyond the shallow headline - so that you can come to a forgiveness with yourself.

If you'd prefer not to do that, just say.

Thanks,
john

Hi John,

Is the one reading this only an idea?

Yes.
Keith xx

Give me something that isn't an idea.

Nothing

The idea of self? Made up.
The idea of no-self? Made up.
The idea of being? Made up.
The idea of tree? Made up.

These are all ideas. By definition, made up.

Snap fingers on both hands.
Smile.
Is the one reading this only an idea?

Much love,
John

None of them.

So what's to be concerned about?

Self - It’s written in green. It’s bright. I think that it is hard, and confining or containing. This feels tight and uncomfortable, and safe and comforting. I think of it as a problem to be solved. It also seems unsubstantial being written on paper, and about to fly off. No-self - it is written in...

What shows up is that I'm not very interested in this! gulp! A surprise, but also a relief to say it I appreciate your encouragement and effort. Is this the only way forward? Is it possible to enquire via the five senses, for example. My sensations and where is the hearer,see-er , taster etc in tha...

not sure how to reply to this one. What I don't want to look at is my near continual more-or-less-background anxiety. I don't want to admit it to myself.On the occasions when I do, it's okay, not the end of the world at all, indeed it's a relief.I feel harmonious and connected and whole. I don't wa...

Hi Nigel, I continue looking at the self as another perception, it seems very freeing. The self idea is not so obvious here, as a lot has been dropped over time, but it is still maintaining itself. There's our natural being. And there's the perception/story/impression of self as an autonomous being ...

Hi Keith,

Three pieces of paper, each one with one word on it:

self

no-self

being

Look at each, and tell me what you feel/think about each one.

Much love,
John

p.s. Spurs are getting better.

resisting it, pushing it away. I don't want to be the source of the disapproval! Slowing down, I can consider that much of what I don't like outside of me indeed has roots inside of me. Eg, projecting my anger onto other people. Ok, good. Now, let's take a time to stay with this, What is it that yo...

no, obviously I wouldn't. Thank you. So this suggests I hold the belief that I'm worthy of disapproval! That's terrible! And means I'm attracting it! Well, let's park the attracting malarkey. :) But, yes, if you fear it, then it's generally because you believe it about you. Which on the one hand is...

fear of getting it wrong- the price. Asking for too much. And, if I get it, more anxiety about having to give value for money. Which is all ridiculous, because usually I'm very good! Fear of disapproval, of not being liked. Also, underneath, fear of success in life. It's coming late in life, 62 yea...

Mainly I'm an introvert, and somehow for work I have to stand up in front of people and 'perform'. Anxiety beforehand. Also if I have to write an email outlining how much my services cost. Anxiety is almost ever present in my experience. I know that the only way is to turn and face it and include i...