Dear Brandon. Thank you for opening up. Yes, control is a big word and it seems that there is a lot to loose, if control is lost. Sanity included. And can you look at this this way: can you loose control that you never had? Hypothetically you believe that you control the weather. And it seems to you...

Thank you for reply. Let’s look at this The experience is that life and me, body, thoughts, emotions are separate. There is understanding that it can not be separate, but the experience says it is. Now can you find out, where does this information come from? What is the evidence of separateness? How...

It does not mean anything, where the screen is, it’s good to know where it is. So yes, you have an ability to watch mind movies and to watch actuality, that which is here now ( full immersion experince of colours, sounds, sensations, smells, taste and feelings) Where is the character? In the actuali...

Thank you for reply. Nice to hear that there is a softening. Even a little one is a big deal. So continue to soften, it’s more power in kindness than in force. Yes, if you withdraw attention from what is not working and feed it to what you love, that which you love grows. Here is a little exercise f...

Thank you for sharing where you are at. However, I will say that there's been many instances where I've just "looked" without any expectation or wanting to get rid of suffering. In some instances I didn't even care if suffering went away or not, I just wanted to see what was here, the truth, nothing...

Dear Arus. Thank you for exploring this. You describe very well. Yes, when you think that clouds should be in a particular way, but they are not, there is pain. That pain is attachment. Wanting something to be here, when it is not or not wanting to let go when it goes. It hurts. And that wanting its...

Thanks for reply. By the way, there is a preview next to submit post button, if not sure, you can always press that and look, how the posts appears. Right, let’s look here I have read many things, but no I don't know what I am from my own understanding. When I look for myself all I find is the flow ...

Thank you for reply. It’s interesting g how every day life has a different feel to it, what seems clear one day, the next is not so much. All that is believed to be I-me-self was seen to be created by life. Yes even the separateness was seen as life doing it's thing. This is good. And let’s look clo...

Thank you. On the surface (of this planet) there seem to be many winds, generated by the air pressure, temperature, moisture etc but all of those things/factors seem to be intricately connected to everything else in this biosphere. But what about beyond the planet? Does the fluttering of a butterfly...

Hi Hamza, thanks for message. I’m doing well, how about you? Ok, so what is in the way of seeing? I'm just very confused why I can't see this truth directly, despite looking in so many different ways. Most likely there is an expectation there for something to happen, to be revealed, or disappear. As...

Thank you! That’s a very interesting thought It is more that this piece of life has its own will that is independent of the universal will. You are saying that a drop of water in the ocean has an independent will. Independent from what? From natural laws, from life itself, from its essence? What if ...

Take your time. There is no rush. This stage is important. And even a small opening is a huge deal.

Here is a story for you, that may help to see resistance in a different light.
https://markedeternal.blogspot.com/2017/01/a-gift.html

Love.

Thank you for reply. Hope you had a good sleep last night and are well rested. Everything is connected and interwoven and has been moving since the beginning of time Let’s look closer at this. What this statement says is that all parts, all forms are interconnected and are moving together. But it’s ...

Thank you for writing. Let’s explore more :) Ok, there is an idea that I am not letting anyone to touch my body with a needle. Ok. That’s good to know. There is sense of rebelliousness and not wanting to be forced to do anything you don’t approve. That’s good to know. And let’s agree with this. Yes,...

Thank you for reply and sharing what is happening. I would say that both is welcome, hunting for beliefs that are causing emotional pain and living life and meeting whatever arises. The LU "short cut", of seeing that there is no separate self, seemed to me to be very powerful, and indeed I cannot fi...