Thank you for sharing. Hm, the desire to be special is a common one. How about being ordinary? Is it ok to be completely ordinary and at the same time unique, incomparable, one of the kind? You are already unique, that’s given, nothing to fight for, nothing to do to become unique. Specialness is a g...

Thank you for sharing. Sounds like you are shifting on a lot of aspects— it’s happening as it should be happening. Now this is a shocker! I am a master at making self defeating decisions! This is your hand-break. Do you want to continue living life with such an idea? What do you get from believing t...

Dear Claire, Thank you for or reply and sharing openly. Yes, it’s nature doing it’s thing. And yes, there is intelligence and patterns. You can call it the divine. You can call it the great mystery. Life is not random, but a play of one energy appearing as many, as plurality. Can you see that life i...

Thank you for reply. It’s very interesting that you can see nature outside, but what about nature inside? You are nature expressing itself as a human form, as thoughts, as feelings, as aliveness. Is there a line that separates nature outside from nature inside? Are there different natures in differe...

Thank you for reply! Here you hit something: I'm very attached to this idea which i described of existence of abstractions. I hope it is not necessary to ditch it to perceive the reality beyond ego. It is necessary. Abstractions are mental images, concepts, unreal. Take a unicorn for example. Is uni...

Thank you for honesty and opening up. There is much to explore here! There is conflict in me because I don't want to be so easily distracted and aroused. But then I think maybe I should just let it be what it is. But that doesn't sit well. So we have this- I don’t want this. And I should let it be. ...

Thank you for reply! To sum up what have you learned about time from your own experience? As for the debt. Find that feeling, how does it feel to be in debt? Where is that feeling? Is it ok for it to be here? What comes up when you focus on that feeling? When was the very first time you felt this? B...

Thank you for replying. I hear you. But when attention is lost (as it is for large parts of the day), then there is that creeping habitual feeling that there is something wrong now that needs to get better in the future. Why does that sense keep returning? It keeps returning so that it can be met. Y...

Thank you for replying. What do I mean by life? Is experience that is happening and that includes everything: sense of being alive and knowing of ever changing experiences. So is there a line between life and me? Is there inside and outside of life happening? Focus on the sense of aliveness and clos...

Thank you for answering. You say that ego is a sense of individual existence. Ok. Where is that sense? Can you look into it? Does this sense appear outside of the whole life or part of the whole life? By life I mean all experiences. Its job is to make the World move, i think. To make the World beaut...

Thank you for reply. Buddhist terminology is fine, but I invite you to share using your own words, how you see it. There are many ways to describe the same and what I’m looking for is authentic, fresh expression. I know that language is very limited and it’s difficult to put what we are looking at i...

Great, so let’s dive right into it.
What is ego?
What is your relationship with ego?
What does this ego want?
What does it do, what is it’s job?

Explore this and write what you find out.

Love.

Thank you for reply. Right, you say you experience time chronologically. But is that true? There seems to be continuity, there seems to be patterns that play out in time. But right here right now, this very moment is timeless. Time comes up as a image of what happened, as an image of what might happ...

Dear Arus, Nice to see you back! And thank you for update! So, as much as possible I am just dropping beliefs, fears and hopes. I am staying with what is happening now and what is being felt now, as much as I can. As much as I can I am forgiving myself for being far from “perfect” at this, knowing t...

Hi Nicodemus! Long time indeed! I’m happy to see you back and we can continue from here.

Let me ask you freshly.
What are you looking for?
What are you longing for?

Let’s start here and see where this goes.
Love