Hi Rali,

Morning. Hope you’re doing well. I saw a grey whale AND a pod of orcas today - clearly a lucky sign. :)

What hasn’t reappeared?
That clear, obvious, no-self seeing, is that something that comes and goes?
Or is it a moment where thought stopped interfering, followed by thought saying ...

Hi Rali,

I had the most stable, clearest, longest lasting glimpse yet the other day. It was really clear and very, very obvious. It didn’t come with any euphoria or anything; it was quite matter of fact.

I started with that “sinking back into awareness” and noticed the flow of everything that ...

Hi Rali,

Thanks for the questions. Thought provoking, and poking something that at times doesn’t want to be poked. I’ve been returning to this a lot this week, and it’s been really helpful.

Now don’t turn this into understanding.

Yeah…. There’s such grasping for understanding, for a path, for ...

Hi Rali,

That whole idea of processing, releasing, needing attention — look at it carefully:
Is that coming from sensation… or from thought trying to manage sensation?
When a sensation appears — before anything is done with it — is it incomplete? Is it stuck? Does it ask for help?
Or is it ...

Hi Rali,

What lovely questions. These are so precise in focusing on what's coming up and what's next and unwinding where I'm selfing. These are really useful, and the last few weeks have been so helpful and so appreciated.

Without adding a single thought… does the sensation stay exactly the ...

Hi Rali,

That heavy, painful energy you say lasts for weeks, does the energy itself say “this should be gone by now”?
Or does that come from thought?
That same energy, does it say “I am being processed”?
Or is that another layer added on top?
You’re still sneaking in a manager. “Processing ...

Hi Rali,

It can’t be other than it is, here, now. Not an approval, not neutral acceptance, not liking it. Just no second version of this moment exists. All of these alternative scenarios and appraisals of the current moment exist only as thoughts.

I'm noting my own conditioning and religious ...

Hi Rali,

Have a safe flight! Hope you're going somewhere beautiful and sunny. :)

Once the illusion of the formation of self is seen in general (i.e. the shift), it’s much easier to spot it in specific “situations” (aka beliefs) - in a specific belief or category of beliefs (e.g. fetters). The ...

Hi Rali,

Thanks for your questions. These were insightful and provocative in a good way.

Suffering (resistance to THIS – not seeing it as perfect the way it is) is a very good tool in finding unchecked beliefs and there are plenty of these. That provides you with an opportunity for observation ...

Hi Rali,

Sorry for the delay; it’s been a hard week. Some pretty major stuff has been going wrong and I haven’t been able to meditate or look properly until today.

Right now what is there on a path? Lanie? Awareness?
Or is that just another thought appearing?
Path also requires time – a line ...

Hi Rali,

I hope you had a wonderful holiday with your kids!!! Where do South Africans go for holiday? I’m imagining a beautiful beach along the coast, but have genuinely no idea. :)

Currently on holiday too! In Mexico City. It’s spring break and western Canada got hit by second winter ...

Hi Rali,

Just making sure you saw my previous message? If you're busy or need some time for life stuff, no worries. :) Hope you are well.

Hi Rali,

the mind often tries to relocate the self. First it’s the thinker, then the observer, then awareness itself.

How is awareness different than "what is"? Is it separate from it? It might just be semantics, or it might be a misunderstanding on my part. I've been trying to separate ...

Hi Rali,

It might have happened?? There was a subtle subtle shift (I think) and things might be different, but they also might not be. They are certainly not clearer and it’s beyond possible that this is still just wishful thinking.

I had some weird dreams - I was a snake giving birth to live ...

Hi Rali,

Sorry for the delay here. I was looking. Not necessarily seeing, but a lot of looking. :)

Super jealous of your trip; that sounds amazing!!! I keep reminding myself that Canada is pretty good and we have animals….But LIONS! Wow! They seem like the best cat by far! Canada has mountain ...