Hi Kento

Checking whether you saw my note. Appreciate a response.

Thanks

Hi Kento,
I looked closely and found that a more accurate way to say is 'noticing happening'. It is not "I become aware".
That noticing happens - not a me doing it. No awareness also to be seen separate from what is. So 'I becoming aware' is not right. In the flow, noticing pops up - it has no ...

Hi Kento,
Good question. I meant that it is made up stuff with components - visual of the body, another body, belief in a thought, rising sensations, images flashing. The unrelated separate happenings seem to create relationships and a me. I found that if there is no awareness, then thoughts run in ...

HI Kento

what concocts images, thoughts and sensation?

Nothing. There is nothing behind this dynamics.

How have you been?
Thanks for asking. Ups and downs. More ease in life. Some sort of loosening.

I saw in the announcements, that you are offering video based guidance. How does that work?

What concocts them, and how are they concocted?
Take a look at the very moment they are concocted, and ...

I wanted to add that the sense of I is a concoction of Images, Thoughts and Sensations. The mechanism is clear.

Hi Kento
It has been a while.

I could not find a definite answer to the question 'who are you?'. I don't know. I cant find a permanent 'I'. There are times when I behave as a person (a body mind with a biography). But other times, when there is no thinking about it and knowing who I am.

Thanks

Such logic dropped, without thinking about it, what is it that makes you certain about it?

There is nothing known, the certainty is a thought. Without it, no certainty of anything.

What makes it so certain, when it isn' anything in particular?

Direct experience is presence of something rather than absence of anything. 'i am' or presence or being or any word. There is something (not a thing), 'there is nothing' is not in experience. In other words, I can't say I dont exist ...

Why make up that "something" which ends your search, rather than ending it right now?

I don't know the answer.

I wish I could stop, but I dont know how to stop it. I am not sure what will I do, even if I could stop the search. How will I find what is really here or what am I truly, if I dont ...

where are you stuck at, when in the end you can't find that thing to which all is happening to?

Hi Kento

There is still an expectation operating at times that something should happen - a visceral response, awakening, expansiveness, change of perceptions etc. that will bring an end to the search ...

What is "just seeing"?

Hi Kento
Seeing, hearing, sensing and so on, ever changing, along with a feeling and a bunch of thoughts that it is all happening to me, which cannot be found when looked for.

When is "just seeing"?

Hi Kento

I don't know. Time is in the seeing or thinking. When I look, I have no way to know the answer.

When you recognize "right now," is it right now?

Hi Kento
No. It is not. It is fleeting and hence cannot be pinned down.

Is "seeing right now" a memory of seeing or seeing itself?

'Seeing right now' is seeing itself.