Yes, spot on - minus the god thing. Don't know about you, but i know nothing about god.

John,

No one knows how to act.

And yet acting happens, regardless of the stories about right or wrong.

You've got so many ideas about what's good and what isn't, but do they change anything in the way you act? That's not what you're saying in this long post earlier today. So smoking etc ...

John,

I have no answers about right or wrong.

What i have seen is that it is impossible to cultivate what is considered right and suppress what is considered wrong. You have seen that too - your whole previous post says nothing but this very same thing.

Keep denying what you're seeing as long as ...

John,

All that is happening is THIS.
It doesn't care for your judgement or approval. You want something else. I cannot give it to you. Nobody can.
But your wanting something else is THIS too.
Chasing something that belongs with the dreams is THIS too.

So what?

Dear Samantha,


You’re noticing that sensations don’t tell you anything about “you.”
No height, no gender, no self.
Labels come after. They’re mental. They’re not part of what’s here.


Even the sensation of “hands” vanishes when there’s no surface or task. And that boundary between “you” and the ...

Samantha,


Perfect. This is exactly what it looks like when the scaffolding falls apart.


Of course it feels confusing. Of course part of "you" wants to grab some perspective to stand on — even if it's just “I’m watching the show.” That’s not failure. That’s the last echo of identification trying ...

Samantha,


l see the character Samantha now.
l can see life expressing moment to moment.

Slow down.
Who is seeing?


That phrasing still carries distance.
A witness. A someone, quietly standing apart, “watching the show.”
But that too is story. Can you see it?


Is there really a viewer?


Or ...

Samantha,


Cool.
The silence doesn’t tolerate noise anymore. That’s not a doing—it’s the system no longer running interference.


And the absence of thoughts, the stillness when reactivity doesn’t show up—that’s the ground, not an achievement. No one made that happen.


Now for the hands which, as ...

John,


It is hard to accept that in the beginning, but now I feel I can accept that, all I want is to be clear.
But listen: if you say “so be it” with clenched teeth, that’s not it.

Real “so be it” doesn’t feel good.

It rips through you.
It literally wrenches your guts.
It leaves nothing.
No ...

John,


You keep saying:
l can’t let it along… I still feel I am the guy in the "I-movie".
Good. Feel it. Let it ache.

You don’t need to get rid of the movie.

You just need to see it for what it is.


The thoughts say, “This is me.”

The emotions flood in.

The story kicks up: “I’m not there yet ...

Sounds good - whenever you're ready.

Enjoy the holiday. ;-)

John,


You’re still dividing your life into “the moment I see” and “the moment I lose it.”


But look closely—what actually changes?


When you read, when you write to me, when you “feel enlightened”—what’s different?


More silence? Less fear? A bit of space?



Fine. But look again—did YOU/John ...

Hey John,


Yes. This is what it looks like when the story starts to die.


Not peace. Not clarity. Not bliss.
But collapse.
Confusion.
No control.
No escape.
Just THIS.


You said:
It seems fall and fall and no things to catch up.
Good. Let it fall.
Let it all fall.
There is nothing to catch ...

Yes, John. That’s it.


All the stories, the analysis, the quotes—they were just cover.
Now you’re saying what’s actually here:
Overwhelm. And an idea about “No Self.”


Let it burn.
Don’t fix it.
Don’t think it through.


You said it: intense mood, intellectual understanding.
So what?


That doesn ...

Hello Anjali,

How's it going?