Hi Ilona, get back to you early this coming week. Didn't quite hit that benchmark. There are a lot of beliefs to go through. And this kind of work takes practice, persistance and time, at least that's how I see it. Anyways, I dont really have anything to get back to you on right now. And it would be...

Hi Ilona, no worries on delayed answer, I'm always just stoked you get back to me at all and continue to work with me :) One I can recommend is Byron Katie’s work Thats good stuff, its disarmingly simple and I am specifically looking at the 4 question method, I think there are a lot of beliefs curre...

ou see what you believe. And you can look at what you believe and question that. But not by looking for a proof of beliefs in the experience, but looking at the belief itself. How do you look at beliefs? I was contemplating this and thoughts articulating the words describing the beliefs kept coming...

Sorry for the extended period of silence, I will try to give you notice if there is a time again where I will be unable to respond for an extended period. I predict I should be able to respond every other day for a while ahead. To sum up what have you learned about time from your own experience? Tha...

There seems to be continuity, there seems to be patterns that play out in time. But right here right now, this very moment is timeless. Time comes up as a image of what happened, as an image of what might happen. Check this now. What did you do yesterday at the same time? Okay, that seems accurate,...

That is very exciting Ilona! thank you for continueing to work with me :) Then look in your experience, how do you perceive time. Okay, so I normally perceive time chronologically, as i one moment seems to lead into the next. Sometimes the experience of time can vary, and I think that is mostly depe...

Would you say a big fat YES, it’s clear that there never was a separate being, i in charge of life? Or is there any doubt? I would have to agree. It has settled in a bit more, and its strange that we essentially still have to talk like there is an I in charge, or maybe that is automatically inferre...

s that a paradox? Can you give me examples of where you are responsible? No I meant like I meant like I get laws and things and friends and responsabilites I take on, are still a thing. I just dont have to have any emptions around success or failure in them as there is no I to do anything about it

Therre is no me on the hook for anything

To clarify, there is no special separate from the living me right here and now I, like I am still liable as an agent living in the world, and responsible for the actions I perform to other people, which is weird with the whole free will thing.

How does that look in normal everyday life? That there is nothing to really to yearn to be. It's probably just best to enjoy the experience and see what happens. It hasn't changed much in every day life, less negative feelings around should, such as regret isnt as much of judgement, and the attache...

Thank you Ilona! Is there I that can awaken? Is there a gate to cross? No, there is no I to awaken. That has been rather established at this point. And a gate to cross? Well the gate is a metaphor, and the transition from suspecting to knowing is the best interpretation of crossing that gate to be f...

For a while there might be looking and not finding. But there comes a point of knowing that separate self is impossible. Nothing changes, all goes as it did, there never was a me in charge of a separate piece of life. Life goes on. By itself. See the difference? Yes, that makes sense. I think the f...

Hi Ilona, Sorry my responces are a couple days apart, work is pretty intense these days. Period of growth. Can you look back and tell me what you see as biggest difference from before we started this conversation? What hasn’t changed? What is The biggest surprise? Hmm, honestly there isn't too much ...

Letting go of expectations and hope hurts and it is sad to realise that they are soap bubbles. I don't think that is why I am sad, I think the sadness is for other poeple. As you said much earlier, something that never did exist can really be lost, the perspective can change, and if the perspective...

The narrative can continue and it does so by itself, only it’s no longer believed.. Ahhhhh, for some reason there was an expectation that the narrative would disolve once it was seen thorugh in a thorough enough way. Thank you for clarifying! Ok, how does it feel to see this? I know word “no self” ...