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by chrisaaa
Mon Nov 23, 2020 1:26 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Chris's thread
Replies: 221
Views: 5739

Re: Chris's thread

Ok Vivien, if you think that is best. Thank you for all of your help and sorry if I’ve been difficult. I’m disappointed that I haven’t seen it yet but I have a much better idea of how to go about it now.

All the best,
Chris
by chrisaaa
Mon Nov 23, 2020 8:45 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Chris's thread
Replies: 221
Views: 5739

Re: Chris's thread

Ok Vivien, any advice about what I should do in the meantime?
by chrisaaa
Sun Nov 22, 2020 7:08 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Chris's thread
Replies: 221
Views: 5739

Re: Chris's thread

Hi Vivien Ok here is a list of things that seem to be in my control until I look deeply. Thinking, walking, typing, checking the time, eating, talking, concentrating, cooking, moving my body in any way, emotions, using my phone, stretching. As soon as I look for a doer, there isn’t one. I swear I’m ...
by chrisaaa
Sun Nov 22, 2020 1:02 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Chris's thread
Replies: 221
Views: 5739

Re: Chris's thread

Hi Vivien Are you totally sure about this? That there is no doer, decider, etc? Or rather you are just understanding this intellectually, but in your everyday life it still FEELS or SEEMS like that ‘I am thinking, I am doing, deciding, choosing, etc.? I still feel to be the doer, thinker etc. but wh...
by chrisaaa
Sat Nov 21, 2020 8:01 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Chris's thread
Replies: 221
Views: 5739

Re: Chris's thread

Hi Vivien And how do you know that fear is the right label, and not excitement or anticipation? If you don’t listen to thoughts, can you know anything about the sensation? No, it’s just a fuzzy feeling that goes all around my body and I have no idea what it is. It’s really intense and appears consis...
by chrisaaa
Fri Nov 20, 2020 5:13 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Chris's thread
Replies: 221
Views: 5739

Re: Chris's thread

Hi Vivien As I was working on these pointers yesterday I had a strong glimpse. It lasted a good half hour or so. So this could be it. Now just stay with the fear. Not with the story, but with the sensations in the body that is being labelled as ‘fear’. What happens to this sensation/feeling if you d...
by chrisaaa
Tue Nov 17, 2020 10:07 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Chris's thread
Replies: 221
Views: 5739

Re: Chris's thread

Hi Vivien Someone has to be in charge or else it will all go out of control. • there is someone in charge- I can’t find this someone anywhere • if they are seen not to exist, control will be lost- if they don’t exist, the organism seems to have been doing OK without them up until now. It seems as th...
by chrisaaa
Mon Nov 16, 2020 8:59 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Chris's thread
Replies: 221
Views: 5739

Re: Chris's thread

Hi Vivien C: Someone has to be in charge or else it will all go out of control. V: How do you know this? I have no idea, I just believe it. How do you know that without believing in a self, without believing in a controller, things will go out of control? It seems as though control needs a controlle...
by chrisaaa
Mon Nov 16, 2020 10:10 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Chris's thread
Replies: 221
Views: 5739

Re: Chris's thread

Hi Vivien I’m a bit devastated that I’ve been trying for so long and not gotten anywhere. I give almost all my spare time to this. Has this happened before? Say this aloud to yourself a few times: There is no separate self at all in reality. No agent that is in charge, no manager, no watcher, no own...
by chrisaaa
Sun Nov 15, 2020 10:27 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Chris's thread
Replies: 221
Views: 5739

Re: Chris's thread

Hi Vivien

Yes I’m quite sure. Looking at my experience without thinking about it and holding the pointer in mind is just very difficult for me. I think that’s what makes me so tired.

Chris
by chrisaaa
Sat Nov 14, 2020 10:22 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Chris's thread
Replies: 221
Views: 5739

Re: Chris's thread

Hi Vivien
Because there is nothing else to the self than the narrative, the story of my life
I do understand this but seeing it fully comes and goes. I’ve been looking all day and exhausted myself. I’ll try again tomorrow.

Chris
by chrisaaa
Fri Nov 13, 2020 9:02 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Chris's thread
Replies: 221
Views: 5739

Re: Chris's thread

Hi Vivien I’m not sure what else there is to see. We started talking about time after this exchange: V: Please show me ANY thought that is real (contains experience). ANY. Can you? C: No, all thought content is imaginary. No thoughts are experienced with the senses. If I’m thinking of an image or so...
by chrisaaa
Tue Nov 10, 2020 9:53 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Chris's thread
Replies: 221
Views: 5739

Re: Chris's thread

Hi Vivien Without the notion of time, the assumption of there being an enduring entity called Chris or me simply cannot stand. So prove experientially that there is an enduring entity who travels through space and time? Time (past/future) isn’t real. The past and future only exist in the contents of...
by chrisaaa
Mon Nov 09, 2020 9:25 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Chris's thread
Replies: 221
Views: 5739

Re: Chris's thread

Sorry Vivien, it's still quite a lot of effort for me just to see that time is an illusion so this seems a bit too difficult. Can I spend another day on this?

Chris
by chrisaaa
Sun Nov 08, 2020 9:19 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Chris's thread
Replies: 221
Views: 5739

Re: Chris's thread

Hi Vivien Is there a fear to discover that there is no such thing as time, past or memory? No, I’d actually be quite glad to discover that the past isn’t real. Is there any difference between a memory and a thought? With a memory, there is a belief attached that it is real- its contents were experie...

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