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by johnboy
Fri Jul 10, 2020 10:09 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: let's start
Replies: 22
Views: 285

Re: let's start

ok, I don't want to go down the passive-aggressive punishing you road! So, looking again, I agree with you: '' Now, were this perception to be resolved, there would be no anxiety of how others feel about me, because I have resolved that and no longer feel that anymore - and yes, I'm no angel, and fa...
by johnboy
Thu Jul 09, 2020 11:07 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: let's start
Replies: 22
Views: 285

Re: let's start

What shows up is that I'm not very interested in this! gulp! A surprise, but also a relief to say it I appreciate your encouragement and effort. Is this the only way forward? Is it possible to enquire via the five senses, for example. My sensations and where is the hearer,see-er , taster etc in that?
by johnboy
Thu Jul 09, 2020 5:55 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: let's start
Replies: 22
Views: 285

Re: let's start

not sure how to reply to this one. What I don't want to look at is my near continual more-or-less-background anxiety. I don't want to admit it to myself.On the occasions when I do, it's okay, not the end of the world at all, indeed it's a relief.I feel harmonious and connected and whole. I don't wan...
by johnboy
Wed Jul 08, 2020 11:55 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: let's start
Replies: 22
Views: 285

Re: let's start

resisting it, pushing it away. I don't want to be the source of the disapproval! Slowing down, I can consider that much of what I don't like outside of me indeed has roots inside of me. Eg, projecting my anger onto other people.
by johnboy
Wed Jul 08, 2020 11:31 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: let's start
Replies: 22
Views: 285

Re: let's start

no, obviously I wouldn't. Thank you. So this suggests I hold the belief that I'm worthy of disapproval! That's terrible! And means I'm attracting it!
by johnboy
Wed Jul 08, 2020 9:32 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: let's start
Replies: 22
Views: 285

Re: let's start

Even when a weekend goes really well, there's still a part of me that makes me pay a price-exaggerated tiredness afterwards or my body somatising medical conditions (more in the past than now)
by johnboy
Wed Jul 08, 2020 9:29 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: let's start
Replies: 22
Views: 285

Re: let's start

fear of getting it wrong- the price. Asking for too much. And, if I get it, more anxiety about having to give value for money. Which is all ridiculous, because usually I'm very good! Fear of disapproval, of not being liked. Also, underneath, fear of success in life. It's coming late in life, 62 year...
by johnboy
Wed Jul 08, 2020 5:56 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: let's start
Replies: 22
Views: 285

Re: let's start

Mainly I'm an introvert, and somehow for work I have to stand up in front of people and 'perform'. Anxiety beforehand. Also if I have to write an email outlining how much my services cost. Anxiety is almost ever present in my experience. I know that the only way is to turn and face it and include it...
by johnboy
Wed Jul 08, 2020 5:56 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: let's start
Replies: 22
Views: 285

Re: let's start

Mainly I'm an introvert, and somehow for work I have to stand up in front of people and 'perform'. Anxiety beforehand. Also if I have to write an email outlining how much my services cost. Anxiety is almost ever present in my experience. I know that the only way is to turn and face it and include it...
by johnboy
Wed Jul 08, 2020 5:56 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: let's start
Replies: 22
Views: 285

Re: let's start

Mainly I'm an introvert, and somehow for work I have to stand up in front of people and 'perform'. Anxiety beforehand. Also if I have to write an email outlining how much my services cost. Anxiety is almost ever present in my experience. I know that the only way is to turn and face it and include it...
by johnboy
Wed Jul 08, 2020 5:56 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: let's start
Replies: 22
Views: 285

Re: let's start

Mainly I'm an introvert, and somehow for work I have to stand up in front of people and 'perform'. Anxiety beforehand. Also if I have to write an email outlining how much my services cost. Anxiety is almost ever present in my experience. I know that the only way is to turn and face it and include it...
by johnboy
Wed Jul 08, 2020 5:56 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: let's start
Replies: 22
Views: 285

Re: let's start

Mainly I'm an introvert, and somehow for work I have to stand up in front of people and 'perform'. Anxiety beforehand. Also if I have to write an email outlining how much my services cost. Anxiety is almost ever present in my experience. I know that the only way is to turn and face it and include it...
by johnboy
Wed Jul 08, 2020 5:02 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: let's start
Replies: 22
Views: 285

Re: let's start

Hello, yes I'm ready to explore, thanks
by johnboy
Wed Jul 08, 2020 8:28 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: let's start
Replies: 22
Views: 285

let's start

LU is focused guiding for seeing there is no real, inherent 'self' - what do you understand by this? resistance to answering this! cos I don't want to get into 'explaining' it. I've had moments in the past, some longer, some shorter, of having seen thru, and dwelling in a state of continual coming ...

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