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by seriousrick
Mon Sep 28, 2020 7:07 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Seeing
Replies: 63
Views: 2174

Re: Seeing

Hi Nic, Sorry for the quiet. Life has been busy, but more relevant is the fact that, emotionally, I have essentially lost faith in ever finding a kind of abiding freedom. The breakthroughs here were very intense but, as always, they fade, and the sense of my being real is almost continuous. Best Rick
by seriousrick
Tue Sep 01, 2020 5:38 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Seeing
Replies: 63
Views: 2174

Re: Seeing

Thank you for waking me up, Nic. I am finding myself in a new relationship, a little love drunk, but not a million miles from awareness all the time. It enhances it often. Where are they coming from and going to? I cannot see where they come from, or where they go to. This idea of self appears to ho...
by seriousrick
Tue Aug 18, 2020 9:36 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Seeing
Replies: 63
Views: 2174

Re: Seeing

Hello Nic, I have sat with this a couple of times. During those sessions, it has been like a salve to some of these deeply enmeshed beliefs about responsibility over what thoughts arise. Its some very surprising and welcome stuff. I am, however, increasingly tentative about answering your questions ...
by seriousrick
Thu Aug 13, 2020 9:15 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Seeing
Replies: 63
Views: 2174

Re: Seeing

Thank you, Nic. Shortly after I wrote that I put down my phone and leaned once again into the wind of all the thoughts and feelings I had been avoiding. Soon enough, freedom and equanimity, and the fading of self. I greatly appreciate your post and will absorb it and action it tomorrow, after some m...
by seriousrick
Thu Aug 13, 2020 8:25 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Seeing
Replies: 63
Views: 2174

Re: Seeing

Could you say more about this? What exactly happens when you experience identification? How is it experienced in DE? It is true; DE uncovers its nature. A stream of thoughts. But a stream of weary thoughts. Heavy at their own continued recurrence. Heavy at having seen, and yet again being apparentl...
by seriousrick
Tue Aug 11, 2020 3:33 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Seeing
Replies: 63
Views: 2174

Re: Seeing

Hey Nic! No problem; I understand you have been deep in the work yourself. To be completely honest, my foot has been missing the gas pedal. But this morning I have started looking for the self in the visual/sound DE again, just like we started. There is still juice in it, and as you say, even barebo...
by seriousrick
Sat Aug 01, 2020 2:55 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Seeing
Replies: 63
Views: 2174

Re: Seeing

Thanks Nic.

I think what I will do, for now, is go back to day 1 of this thread and repeat the days. It was the specific ways of looking I found helpful, so I'd say there is a good chance they will do so again.

Once I have done that, I will address your final questions. Speak then! :)
by seriousrick
Mon Jul 27, 2020 12:02 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Seeing
Replies: 63
Views: 2174

Re: Seeing

Hey Nic! Without labouring the point too much, I was definitely more 'on track' when each day was parsed into a certain kind of looking exercise that I could repeat amongst all the busyness of life. Its primarily emotional states that pull me into identification; aversion from negative feelings and ...
by seriousrick
Tue Jul 21, 2020 2:24 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Seeing
Replies: 63
Views: 2174

Re: Seeing

Thank you, Nic. I will do as you say, let things settle and allow this looking to permeate more of the habitual thoughts that arise with activity, and associations with life. There is no doubt that something has shifted; it is markedly easier to let go, the senses are clearer and it feels very much ...
by seriousrick
Tue Jul 21, 2020 9:11 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Seeing
Replies: 63
Views: 2174

Re: Seeing

I wrote this yesterday on the beach Residual Self There is a habitual sense of responsibility that the mind must be used to understand the world. I even caught myself feeling responsible for perception itself, before I realised that the dog was moving entirely as part of such-ness. Silly, but true. ...
by seriousrick
Mon Jul 20, 2020 3:11 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Seeing
Replies: 63
Views: 2174

Re: Seeing

I definitely am clinging to it as I go about my daily activities. Sometimes with a kind of furiosity. It's an addiction, there's just no doubt in my mind that is its nature, at least in the relative sense. I will look at this throughout the day and get back to you. Good luck with the charger! I will...
by seriousrick
Sun Jul 19, 2020 2:38 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Seeing
Replies: 63
Views: 2174

Re: Seeing

Yes, a shift is happening during direct looking, especially since realising I cannot feel thoughts. At all. What is it exactly that is choosing which hand to raise? At first, there seemed to be a chooser. I zoomed in closer to each moment before, during and after the movement, from DE alone. From DE...
by seriousrick
Fri Jul 17, 2020 3:30 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Seeing
Replies: 63
Views: 2174

Re: Seeing

And in your DE what qualities do you find in that 'is-ness?' I do find that generally my mind is very, very busy thinking about all this stuff. Sometimes I can let that happen, but more often than not I am grasping at experience. But from DE, is-ness has no quality other than itself. Quality is a m...
by seriousrick
Fri Jul 17, 2020 9:50 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Seeing
Replies: 63
Views: 2174

Re: Seeing

Re: does the self emerge from reality, part II:

I’m starting to doubt my previous answer. It isnt, in fact, clearly emerging from reality. If it was emerging, it would have a source. I cannot find a source. Like a snake eating its own tail, it folds into nothing.
by seriousrick
Thu Jul 16, 2020 2:13 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Seeing
Replies: 63
Views: 2174

Re: Seeing

Sorry for the delay Nic, I've been a bit unwell and found myself binging on Netflix. Not a common behaviour...jeeps they make that stuff addictive..! Images and sounds; how do they imply or suggest selfhood? In raw experiencing, there can only be what is. That is-ness may indeed be a bunch of images...

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