Stacy, I appreciate your patience. I've spent hours re-reading, going over everything we have discussed together. Three times I have totally re-written my response to your last entry, and it is still rubbish. I am struggling so much with just the writing; I can't just be with content. Trying to writ...

Just a short update.

I have spent a few hours for the past two days in different situations to see if this made things any easier.

Still no gaps in the raging river of thought yet.

I will continue.

Before you start, watch this video, please: Done. Please do the following exercise: Throughout your waking day, try to observe the gap between thoughts as often as possible. It can be done by noticing that ‘thinking’ is happening right now, then stop and just simply wait for the next thought to com...

At the moment, there seems to be a lot of doubt, confusion and worry that what is experience and might simply be another level of deception of self-talk/thinking. I have done the exercise several times over the past few days. The experience has stayed the same, and I am not really sure what is true ...

Look very, very carefully. Oh, dear, Oh, dear. No need to look carefully So, if I were there with you, would I see & hear it, too? Or not? This sentence hit me. What was going on? Nothing to hear or see or anything only thought that says so. How stupid. I am only joking here, but this manifestation...

Does the sense of self have a location? When there is the vocal or visual invasion of awareness, there is a strong feeling of it being roughly located in the vicinity of the head. Awareness without this is harder to pinpoint. Does the sense of self have a shape or a size? [/color] It's felt size sh...

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever? When I look there is no-thing i can find, that I could say is a 'self', 'me' or 'I' , however, there is an experience of a familiar voice of unknown origin which I am in constant dialogue wi...

What did you find when doing this exercise? I prefered watching without the sound as I found the commentary distracting and less enjoyable, taking me out from the flow of the action. Is the commentary on the soccer game a necessity for the play to happen? [/color] No And in the same way, is the inn...

Did you understand the "Colored Socks" way of looking? Yes or no will be enough. Yes. Post several of your observations in a list exactly like the one above, please. I can be with an open awareness free from the need either to place my direct attention on any single thing or mentally label with my ...

What would you like for me to call you? And what time zone are you in, please? Know 1 or David I'm in the U.K. on GMT 0. What comes up when is read that there is no self, never has been and never will be? That self is a made-up story? Reading this here is agreement and a peaceful acceptance, then w...

Thank you so much for offering to guide me through this. I apologise for the slow response, I was unable to login for the past few days. I have gone over everything you ask me to read, here are my answers to the questions you asked How will life change? I expect to feel more directly in the flow of ...

There is a determination or force of will, which I feel is a little lacking at the moment when compared to my actions on the path a few months ago. There is a general feeling of peace and that everything will be ok, but when I look at that, I can't tell if it is true or it's my ego. I have an idea a...

There is always witnessing mainly visual seeing for me; I can't find any origin, yet none of it feels separate. Looking deeper for the self, ends in a dull acceptance, a kind of recognition with a slight level of annoyance, of there being nothing to find. But I can't get past this. Any suggestions w...

Reading through my initial entry, I haven't really explained where I am at with the whole self thing. I have had a couple of experiences while meditating while on a retreat where there was a witness/awareness/seeing and action then out of nowhere a voice (ego?) said things like "you're a good person...

I am adding as much as I can here pre-emptively to help and waste as little of anyone's time as possible. I would say that I have always tried to live my life to the best of my abilities, always trying to better myself. I had thought I had lived a full and interesting life having experienced most of...