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by MeFree
Sat Jan 02, 2021 8:00 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Freedom Now
Replies: 256
Views: 13476

Re: Freedom Now

Hello Ilona That’s right, it does not dissolve the I, it’s just another belief, that I have no control and that belief sucks. Yes, it most definitely sucks! But show me the i, what does this word I point to? Is it a thought, a feeling, a sensation, a sense? Or there is truly nothing there? Face that...
by MeFree
Tue Dec 29, 2020 2:27 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Freedom Now
Replies: 256
Views: 13476

Re: Freedom Now

Hi Ilona I am choosing, I am typing, I am deciding what to write. But look closer. Is that so? Do you choose what words show up? Or do they show up? Having no choice does not dissolve the I, it's just that now it appears that there is an I-me-self that has no choice. Where previously there was an I-...
by MeFree
Thu Dec 24, 2020 4:21 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Freedom Now
Replies: 256
Views: 13476

Re: Freedom Now

Hi Ilona There is no current experience that everything is happening by itself. Some things are, and some things aren't. Can you be precise here, what exactly is not happening by itself? The vagueness, half aliveness, gap, fogginnes, different words pointing to the same in experience. Use the mind, ...
by MeFree
Mon Dec 21, 2020 4:25 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Freedom Now
Replies: 256
Views: 13476

Re: Freedom Now

CORRECTION: The sentance in the last post "There is actual gap or actual fog" should read "There is NO actual gap or actual fog"
by MeFree
Mon Dec 21, 2020 3:59 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Freedom Now
Replies: 256
Views: 13476

Re: Freedom Now

Hello Ilona How about this- there is awareness of fogginess. The awareness is not foggy in itself, there is knowing of fogginess. Knowing is not obstructed by fogginess. Sure, I'm ok with that. There is awareness of fogginess but awareness is not itself foggy. Ok. Yes agreed. Let’s dive in that fog....
by MeFree
Wed Dec 16, 2020 11:07 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Freedom Now
Replies: 256
Views: 13476

Re: Freedom Now

Hi Ilona There is no gap. There is a cloud of fog between me and what is happening Let’s look at that cloud. What is there? What is the function of that cloud? The function is unknown. The cloud is really just a metaphor. It is like the separation is foggy, there is not a clear dividing line or gap....
by MeFree
Tue Dec 15, 2020 3:24 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Freedom Now
Replies: 256
Views: 13476

Re: Freedom Now

Hi Ilona Yes, there is a belief that there is a self. In experience right here right now, is there a gap between you and what is happening? There is no gap. There is a cloud of fog between me and what is happening. You are aware of these words, are you doing the reading? Or is reading self happening...
by MeFree
Tue Dec 08, 2020 10:55 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Freedom Now
Replies: 256
Views: 13476

Re: Freedom Now

Hi Ilona The sense of me- what is that? How do you know that it is a “me”? Are you a sensation? Or do you know of sensation? Where are you in regards of the “sense of me”? Sense of self is a misidentification. It's actually a sensation of contraction, of separation, of tension. It's like there is a ...
by MeFree
Fri Dec 04, 2020 9:07 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Freedom Now
Replies: 256
Views: 13476

Re: Freedom Now

Hi Ilona I don't see anything. I am the one who is looking. I can not see my own I. Here is the core. I don’t see anything = there is nothing there. There is just looking. Seeing. Breathing, being, witnessing, knowing etc etc and there is nothing there doing that. It’s happening by it-self. Self=its...
by MeFree
Thu Nov 26, 2020 11:17 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Freedom Now
Replies: 256
Views: 13476

Re: Freedom Now

Hi Ilona Happy Thanksgiving! I-me-self cannot die. If you say so. Feels like death. Let's call it metaphorical death. The end. Even the end of an illusion is an end. There is nothing there! There is an experience here of being an I-me-self as a real and true living being. Can batman die? Can idea di...
by MeFree
Thu Nov 19, 2020 1:25 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Freedom Now
Replies: 256
Views: 13476

Re: Freedom Now

Hi Ilona This process, the way I see it is about being able to question the most precious belief and fear comes up as it protects the belief from being found out that it is not the truth. So fear and being able to move past it is very much part of this. I would say that fear like phobias are not so ...
by MeFree
Wed Nov 11, 2020 5:08 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Freedom Now
Replies: 256
Views: 13476

Re: Freedom Now

Hi Ilona Thank you for sharing openly. I understand, what you call fear is not the same as what I call fear. Thank you for the acknowledgement To be honest, I have no experience of panic and terror that you talk about. You are very fortunate in that respect! What you wrote here tells me, that I am n...
by MeFree
Tue Nov 10, 2020 10:10 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Freedom Now
Replies: 256
Views: 13476

Re: Freedom Now

Hi Ilona Thank you for sharing openly. Yeah, resistance is a strong experience. And it’s good to see it come up as it’s clearly here to protect. Yes, it is good to be aware of the resistance. Liberation is not going to give me what I want, hm, what do you want? Can you put in a sentence, what do you...
by MeFree
Tue Nov 03, 2020 7:01 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Freedom Now
Replies: 256
Views: 13476

Re: Freedom Now

Hi Ilona I will try to answer your questions as accurately as I can but for the most part I just don't know. Lots of resistance today. what is this self that is being punished? I don't know. Me. But I don't know what me is. Where do these punishments land? They land on the emotions, on the body, on ...
by MeFree
Fri Oct 30, 2020 5:23 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Freedom Now
Replies: 256
Views: 13476

Re: Freedom Now

Hi Ilona Thank you for sharing. Now it makes sense, your family’s controlling behaviour has made a deep impact on how you see choices. So let’s look freshly. No I do not want to continue making poor choices. Do not want to continue to punish myself for making poor choices either. Let’s look at the f...

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