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by Free2K
Wed Feb 26, 2020 5:47 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: direct experience over intellectual understanding
Replies: 325
Views: 19275

Re: direct experience over intellectual understanding

Hi Vivien, I really appreciate all of your questions, but I know that if I answer them in writing I will be lost in thought again, despite my attempts to write directly from looking. I’m finding that if I read anything about nonduality, or talk about it at all, I’m thrown right back into the concept...
by Free2K
Tue Feb 18, 2020 8:39 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: direct experience over intellectual understanding
Replies: 325
Views: 19275

Re: direct experience over intellectual understanding

Hi Vivien, I thought your suggestion to spend a day focusing on this was a great idea so today my husband gave me the space I needed and took my son out for about 7 hours so that I had the house to myself. It started out great, and I tried to just relax into looking for the me every time that notion...
by Free2K
Thu Feb 13, 2020 11:14 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: direct experience over intellectual understanding
Replies: 325
Views: 19275

Re: direct experience over intellectual understanding

Hi Vivien, I’ve been trying to avoid writing to you because I know theres not much more that can be said. But I’m giving in because I feel so incredibly stuck in such a limbo state again. I’ve been “trying” as hard as I possibly can to look as much as possible- I’ve put post its all over the house t...
by Free2K
Mon Jan 27, 2020 6:20 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: direct experience over intellectual understanding
Replies: 325
Views: 19275

Re: direct experience over intellectual understanding

Hi Vivien, It’s been a strange back and forth flow of seeing it and not seeing it. Last week there was a sudden seeing of how obvious it was that there is no self and everything was just happening on its own accord. It was so blatant that I was just laughing and thinking how funny it is to be so los...
by Free2K
Fri Jan 17, 2020 5:56 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: direct experience over intellectual understanding
Replies: 325
Views: 19275

Re: direct experience over intellectual understanding

Hi Vivien, Ok, that probably does make the most sense. Could you maybe just comment on this: V: So do you believe that a thought is needed in order to look? That looking is requiring a thought to happen? That looking cannot happen without a thought saying “let’s look”? K: Yes, looking and seeing hap...
by Free2K
Thu Jan 16, 2020 7:21 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: direct experience over intellectual understanding
Replies: 325
Views: 19275

Re: direct experience over intellectual understanding

Hi Vivien, After I had written to you this morning, there was this strange gradual feeling of slipping more and more as the day went on. As if I had to “hold on” to the insight in some way- there was so much fear of losing sight of it. And then tonight I was struggling to see things clearly and it w...
by Free2K
Wed Jan 15, 2020 6:05 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: direct experience over intellectual understanding
Replies: 325
Views: 19275

Re: direct experience over intellectual understanding

Hi Vivien, So can you say with 100% certainty that there has been a shift from intellectual understanding to an experiential one? So the interesting thing is that thoughts are still “playing their game” and stating other ways to look at things- I think a big reason is because I’m exposed to a lot of...
by Free2K
Mon Jan 13, 2020 6:34 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: direct experience over intellectual understanding
Replies: 325
Views: 19275

Re: direct experience over intellectual understanding

Hi Vivien, I’m so excited to write to you... there’s suddenly so much to say!! The looking and seeing is happening SO much for often now. A thought will arise like, “I’m feeling so sad about that”, and then another thought arises like, “wait, look, there’s nothing behind that. Feeling sad was a thou...
by Free2K
Fri Jan 10, 2020 5:58 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: direct experience over intellectual understanding
Replies: 325
Views: 19275

Re: direct experience over intellectual understanding

Hi Vivien, I hope you will still see this post! Once I wrote you that last message, it kind of “let me off the hook” of being a student, or having to prove something to you or “myself”. All along I’ve kind of known that was what was holding me back from seeing things simply, as I was trying so despe...
by Free2K
Thu Jan 09, 2020 7:23 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: direct experience over intellectual understanding
Replies: 325
Views: 19275

Re: direct experience over intellectual understanding

Hi Vivien, You had said to consider the hallucination/imagination topic intellectually so that’s what I did. Apart from that, I was trying to say that I see no-self, it’s just not an astounding discovery because it’s always been that way and nothing has changed. Does there have to be an extravagant ...
by Free2K
Wed Jan 08, 2020 5:52 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: direct experience over intellectual understanding
Replies: 325
Views: 19275

Re: direct experience over intellectual understanding

Hi Vivien, K: If I see and hear a ghost- wouldn’t that be it’s reality? V: But HOW do you know that what you see and hear is a ghost and not an imagination? HOW? That’s the thing, if I literally saw an image and heard a sound than it would be real to me. Thoughts might try to say otherwise based on ...
by Free2K
Mon Jan 06, 2020 6:08 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: direct experience over intellectual understanding
Replies: 325
Views: 19275

Re: direct experience over intellectual understanding

Hi Vivien, It took quite a while but I read through and sat with all of your past replies. It reignited my driving passion to see this, as I could glimpse the truth in a lot of your comments, but as I got deeper into the conversation I started to feel the same muddledness and confusion that I’ve bee...
by Free2K
Sat Dec 21, 2019 8:23 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: direct experience over intellectual understanding
Replies: 325
Views: 19275

Re: direct experience over intellectual understanding

Hi Vivien, I’m so sorry to be dragging you on so long! I can’t even express how much I appreciate all your guidance and pointing. I have such a fear of you saying this- that there’s nothing more that can be done... but I know I have to ultimately see this on my own. I’ve actually went back multiple ...
by Free2K
Fri Dec 20, 2019 8:12 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: direct experience over intellectual understanding
Replies: 325
Views: 19275

Re: direct experience over intellectual understanding

Hi Vivien, So currently, what is the reason you would like to see through the self-illusion? At this point, my honest answer would be to see what happens. Ive stripped away my expectations so I don’t really consider the “aftermath” or the benefits that I used to think about 24/7. In the scale of 0-1...
by Free2K
Thu Dec 19, 2019 7:30 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: direct experience over intellectual understanding
Replies: 325
Views: 19275

Re: direct experience over intellectual understanding

Hi Vivien, Is it possible that you have a resistance or a fear to look deeper and really see through the self? Yes, it seems like that could be underlying. I keep trying to look for the fear and resistance though and I don’t find anything- it feels like a blind spot. How do you imagine what would ha...

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